J heart

When we last left off,I was living in Port Burwell with Janet Gray but was getting closer with my friend Janet Stoyles. My marriage was not working out, what with me sleeping upstairs for two and a half years in my own bedroom. Great room by the way , I had called it the camel room, and covered all the walls with murals and collages. The first painting was of ,you guessed it, camels. Then as it progressed , blue meanies ,a portrait of my friend Jeff in a canoe, and a very large and strange collage. Anyone who came down to visit us stayed in that room and was obliged to do a drawing on the wall. I would then sleep downstairs with the evil one.                  I think to avoid mixing the 2 Janets up,we will call Janet Stoyles, J heart.. That was her nickname anyways, and mines was D heart. Everyone knew us as that.

                               I was working up in Kitchener like I had mentioned earlier and it got to the point I would stay at my Mums a few nights a week. About this time, I would meet J heart in the parking lot, for coffees or once I even set up a picnic table and made breakfast on a camp stove for her. Sometimes we even flew kites. You should of seen the looks we received from people coming to work in the wee hours of the morning, priceless. After work , being that her man would need the car they had, I offered to drive her home. This went on for quite some time, then one day at work,I came right out and said ," I think I have fallen in love with you". She looked at me and replied, " The feeling is mutual". So there we were. This led to having secret trysts at antique stores, and out of town rendezvous, but never led to sex. Just a kiss or a hand hold. We just liked being together sharing a meal or a walk. Time was the big factor, as this would have to be done after work or if we phoned in sick and the likes. When we were not together we were miserable, and life was unbearable. Something had to give.

                                                            J heart.
I kind of knew by this time, my now ex. Janet  had a feeling that she was losing me. I never left her right a way as there was our kids to think about. Very difficult situation to not be in love with someone but yet have to stay for the childrens sake. Eventually I would stay up in Kitchener extra nights in a week . J heart moved out of her house and lived , and shared rent with a friend in her house.Her partner was a bit of a crazy bastard, later down the road he came looking for me with a gun, and we were holed up in a neighbours house at the time and he didn't know that though, whew!!.

                           The time became right, and I put my land up for sale that I had bought before I met my wife, here are some pictures,
                                       

                                                when I first bought it

                                               later after the machete and me were done                      

                I truly hated to part with this magical place , but now the move was on, and I needed the cash. Boy did I need the cash. Let's put it this way, lawyers aren't cheap!.I ended up renting a middle+ basement part of a house in Kitchener which was cozy. J heart stayed in her place and I in mine, we would have sleep overs about this time, sometimes her place, sometimes mine.We had keys to each others place.In later years to come she moved in with me. We knew each other for 10 years and were a team( soulmates) for8years . People would stop us in the street for no reason just to tell us how beautiful a couple we were.                

                  Here are some more pics;

                   My worst nightmare happened. I was at home one evening when I received a call from J hearts work. She was working in a ladies fashion store, and would of been home at 9:00. Her friend at work said to me J heart collapsed, come quick.  We raced up there, Mum drove and Dad  came too. I jumped out of the car and ran through the mall. She was on a stretcher unconscious. The ambulance raced to the hospital and we followed. The doctors let me in to where she was getting hooked up to life supports.Terrible thing to happen. I was told to wait outside. In the waiting room it was my Mum, Dorothy, Janet's Dad, and a great friend Jeff who were there. After an eternity, a doctor came in and told us she was going to moved to a hospital in a city called Hamilton. Jeff said he would drive me there , so the two of us tore up the highway. Now it was getting to be late in the night around 1:00 or so and Jeff was on call, he worked for the Hydro company and couldn't stay. I called J hearts sister and husband and left a message. They didn't get the message till late in the morning and came right away.


                                                J heart died.  She had a brain aneurysm , and was gone within 22hours start to finish.

      She was an Angel on earth.

This March 21st-22nd will be 10 years to the day she left. I will pick-up on this story in later posts. Even now  it still is tender to think about. Bye for today.